Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I've woken now to find myself

I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved
And I

[Chorus:]
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become

[Chorus]

Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you

I have woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows of my own
I'm longing to be lost in you

Away from me.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Tears in my eyes

Today I cried after a long time! I don't remember the last time crying! When Mr.Aslani told me there is no way to take the thermodynamics exam again, while he was embarrassing me by his words I was in tears. I was speechless and in tears. The moment I came out of the mechanics office I broke down and wept.

I'm so so sad.I was supposed to buy her a wrist watch today but I couldn't make it.

Thermodynamics II grade: 8 out of 20

Friday, November 11, 2011

Our wrist watches

we bought these watches for each other! Actually these are our birthday presents.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

YOU SHOULD GO

Where in hell can you go
Far from the things that you know
Far from the sprawl of concrete
That keeps crawling its way
About 1,000 miles a day?

Take one last look behind
Commit this to memory and mind
Don't miss this wasteland, this terrible place
When you leave
Keep your heart off your sleeve

Motherland cradle me
Close my eyes
Lullaby me to sleep
Keep me safe
Lie with me
Stay beside me
Don't go, don't you go

O, my five & dime queen
Tell me what have you seen?
The lust and the avarice
The bottomless, the cavernous greed
Is that what you see?

Motherland cradle me
Close my eyes
Lullaby me to sleep
Keep me safe
Lie with me
Stay beside me
Don't go

It's your happiness I want most of all
And for that I'd do anything at all, o mercy me!
If you want the best of it or the most of all
If there's anything I can do at all

Now come on shot gun bride
What makes me envy your life?
Faceless, nameless, innocent, blameless and free,
What's that like to be?

Motherland cradle me
Close my eyes
Lullaby me to sleep
Keep me safe
Lie with me
Stay beside me
Don't go, don't you go

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Pencil and Eraser

PENCIL  Says:

I'm sorry


ERASER  Says:

For what? You didn't do anything wrong.


PENCIL  Says

I'm sorry because you get hurt because of me. Whenever I made a mistake,
you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you
lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

ERASER  Says:
That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was
made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I
know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy
with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad.



I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very
inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the
pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes.
Sometimes along the way, they get hurt, and become smaller / older, and
eventually pass on. Though their children will eventually find someone new
(spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children,
and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

All my life, I've been the pencil. And it pains me to see the eraser that is
my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day,
all that I'm left with would *be eraser shavings and memories of what I used
to have*.



     This is to all the parents  AND children out there

She and I in big Apple in front of the Store

I saw ourselves in New york right next to the store! we were waving to the camera!!

She and I in Times Square